Saturday, September 20, 2008

not who i want to be

i want to take a leave
im not content with how things are and how i perceive them
the familiar Archetype of someone leaving for awhile and coming back a changed man
like moses coming down from the mountain or gandalf changed to white
gradual change isnt good enough
Im tired

5 comments:

SomedaySylas said...

Tired of the change that happens. tired of the tiny changes that somehow only lead back to where you began. as Bruce Wayne put it "sometimes people need something dramatic to shake them out of there apathy."

Adam Hale said...

exactly i just need a good kick to the back of my head

Poems of Long Ago said...

i dont really know what to say.
these things. these feelings.
we have them all inches away from
our hearts. some of us just allow
them to speak up & point it out
to the others a little more
vocally. i've conveyed the same
feelings adam. you know that. life
is a big struggle & a huge mess.
& God is pretty much the only one
that can make it easier inside of
us. friends help too. its probably
one of those half & half deals.
God does some & friends do some.
but i have little room to speak..
because i am just learning about
both subject matters. friends &
God... so we will see. but i can
try to help as best as i know how.
& that may be very little for
what you need, but you must know
that i do care(duhh!) & whatever
you are feeling, it is okay.
because youll probably bounce back
ten times stronger & God will love
it. & so will you :)

Kenneth Alexander said...

If you are waiting for that kick to make you stronger. It wont happen. Because if you aren't gradually growing now when it comes you wont be ready and it will only hurt.

God's word every day
Fellowship with believers
Prayer to God for wisdom and growth

These things are the reasons I am not were I was a year ago. And let me tell you that was a sad place for me.

Getting a job would help too :]

Poems of Long Ago said...

;) i like what kenny said.
job's suck.. but they are a
nessesaity. i hate mine alot
actually.. i am thinking of
getting a lesser paying job
because i cant stand mind that
much lol.. publix is looking good.