Wednesday, May 27, 2009

a punch to the face

you can hear about something and think you understand
but until you experience what you think you understand
you cant fully understand it
purpose, life is all about purpose
why are you here
what are you doing
why are you doing it
a very important concept to grasp
what are you doing right now?
sitting in front of a computer typing truths that i found
in the hope that doing so will push me forward in life
truth from experience, a no greater truth
what is the best way to live and live it
but you must understand
my brain is closed off to a vast amount of knowledge
it needs to grow larger
im squeezing my brain dry there is no knowledge here
need knowledge from outside sources those who under stand fully
the understanding of this life
to the point where you can fully understand the world around you
then you can walk
a beautiful feeling that Ive felt before, an understanding of all things
from the outside it looks foolish but from the inside its amazing
how fortunate i am to be in the circumstances ive come to live
its very hard to see it when you've not been surrounded by it
wisdom is a thing a lack, i hope to see it again one day
should i sit and wait for it or seek it fully
to seek a purpose to know right from wrong
its the only truth i know, im going to find it again if it lets me
the pinballs in my brain have finally stopped bouncing and made it passes the flippers
game over, i diddnt even get a highscore

Thursday, May 7, 2009

dull

there is no thinking here
my mind is a still pond without the smallest ripple
you see movement represents brain activity
i feel a discontent
the reason is because i have had the feeling of the content before
i no longer have this feeling
like a human getting super powers and losing them the next day
the feeling of losing something you never deserved
is this relevant to my self
it is foolish, they say
come dwell in the dark waters with us
let us speak of our misery
at the bottom of the pool is death and we are slowing moving toward it
its too hard to see
my vision is obstructed by my own self
there is a certain state of mind you have to be in to see it
what causes this state is up to you to interpret