Saturday, August 30, 2008

Beautiful realization

kneeling in front of my comp paranoid
if i could live the way i feel right now id die a happy man
maybe a little less paranoia though
being caught underneath addictions, laziness, selfishness
ive took everything for granted
thinking i was a good person but i was wrong
good by my own standards
my standards are garbage
i see through my former self clear as day
If i dont change im a fool
at a stand point outside my old self
looking at everything ive done
this life ive been given im throwing it away
need to stand on my problems not fall beneath
humans need purpose
a need to reject who i used to be
kinda like the words in the bible say
is this born again, death to my old self
this worries me or maybe im just slow
stand against the waves push against them
walk through the water with iron boots
if i fall back punch me forward
forward motion in the brain
a brain that doesnt move has no control
a man with no purpose has no control

3 comments:

Poems of Long Ago said...

did you know that scientologists dont think are brains are anything but a muscel. they think we are run by the thaten inside of us(alien, persay)..

Adam Hale said...

then whats the brain for

Kenneth Alexander said...

hey you blogger you! deep man. It is true. The mind and apathy are man's worst ally against defense. But that you see who you were and know that you are less then God would have you is a good thing. This is were you start. We only begin to see how ugly we are without God, when we begin to see God.

hang in there. don't let worry or doubt weigh you down. God is in the little things, as well as, the big things